guided meditation

This week I've been feeling much better in general, likely due to the wellspring of good energy I've asked for and have been receiving from y'all, plus people I barely know and even people I've never met!

I mean, who could feel bad when they get texts like this?

Powerful healers, you all are.

I've also been turned onto some guided meditation tools from one of my sisters-of-the-rebellious-cells which I've been listening (aka falling asleep) to. They are available for all sorts of conditions, and I've seen there is tons of heavy hitting research to suggest that this stuff is pretty powerful.

I seem to always drift off for the major portion of the discourse, which takes me through a visualization of self-healing from within my body. The new-age music makes me giggle, and I have to admit if I wasn't in the totally prostrate, open, receiving frame-of-mind this cancer has invited me to embrace, I'd probably be a little suspect.

However, I've taken alllll my cool off.

As the narrator even says in the session: "take what you want, and leave the rest."

What is interesting to me is that while I fall asleep listening, I always come to full consciousness when I hear the following affirmation, because it resonates to me so much:

"More and more, I know that I am healing not because I am scared of dying, 
but for the joy of living."

I can't think of a better way to focus my healing mind. I am acutely motivated by my love of the world. I want to participate actively and healthily in it.

The "kick cancer's ass" imagery that people throw around has not been totally working for me, but if I add "because living is just too awesome", I suddenly feel ready to put on those ass-kicking boots.