Actually, I'm still in my cranio-sacral aura, feeling calm and optimistic. I took steroids last night as a preventative to the water retention that can happen on this protocol, and it made me wake up super sweaty - like, change clothes sweaty. I've been having a 3-4 AM wake-up session more often than not since diagnosis. I've learned to grab the iPad if I try and fail to go to sleep after 10 or 15 minutes and listen to one of my guided meditations, read up on something I've noted I wanted to research, etc. The rule is to keep it light, positive. Usually I can get back to sleep about an hour later.
I've found it's a super good time to catch up on astrology forecasts!
OK, here's Rob Brezny (Even if you think astrology is bunkum, you've gotta love some Rob. He's one of my favorite gurus-on-the-mountaintop, for which only 2 minutes are needed to climb the mountain) for me this week.
I didn't need to read any others after this one.
Gemini Horoscope for week of November 8, 2012
  I urged my readers to meditate on death not as the end of physical life, but as a metaphor for shedding what's outworn. I then asked them to describe the best death they had ever experienced. I got a response that's applicable to you right now. It's from a reader named Judd: "My best death was getting chicken pox at age 13 while living in the Philippines. My mother banished me to the TV room. I was uncomfortable but hyperactive, lonely and driven to agony by the awful shows. But after six hours, something popped. My suffering turned inside out, and a miracle bloomed. I closed my eyes and my imagination opened up like a vortex. Images, ideas, places, dreams, people familiar and strange -- all amazing, colorful, and vibrant -- flowed through my head. I knew then and there that no material thing on this Earth could hook me up to the source of life like my own thoughts. I was free!" | ||
I don't know what I think of astrology but you're right about Rob-- Anyone who writes a book about how the whole world is conspiring to shower you with blessings is wonderful in the extreme. Thanks for sharing him!
ReplyDeleteWow! I've just read the last 3 posts, and am in awe. I don't want to go all Joseph Campbell on you, but you really are on the Heroes trail. Learning the nature of your enemy, facing tough decisions, preparing for the quest,choosing your weapon and armour. You even have someone to dispense wisdom ala Merlin, etc. Can't say that I would be quite as sanguine under the same conditions.
ReplyDeleteYour posts have reaffirmed my belief in the value of "Keep Calm And Carry On" and have helped me establish a sense of perspective.
On a more prosaic note, have you looked at www.patientslikeme.com ? It may help,it may not, but just wanted to put it out there. Just keep going, one step at a time, soak up all the support on offer and you'll have the strength to keep going.
"Best death you ever had" How awesome is that?? Go Rob.
ReplyDeleteI think of you and root for you every day, and the courage and poetry with which you approach this and all of life.
(On a totally unrelated note, what an interesting phrase - "root for you." The earthier versin certainly takes something out of the whole cheerleading gig.)
It's great that Julia is able to be there now, and that you are feeling good enough for walks and puttering. More of the dame!